Now I open my eyes and see the great expectations that I am put under.
Family expectations and other aspects that require a concrete strong will to overcome.
Peer pressure.
Time management.
Teen interests.
Chasing dreams.
And sometimes,
chasing the unnecessary.
It all boils down to ME.
-Dubious Scrambles
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I am proud of her.
Till then.
KA PEW PEW! PEW!! BOOOOOOM!
Hello there folks! How were the holidays? Did you all have a sexy time as I did?
We all know it's not 2009 any more and that's just sad because thinking back, I wasted almost half of the year. But all those times sulking about and doing nothing are all behind me now!
2010 should be all about acting on the things we want, and I would shamelessly do just that!
It's a bummer I haven't made any holiday posts as to what I was up to. Well I wasn't really up to anything very exciting and extraordinary.
No sky jumping or skinny dipping for this fool. Though that doesn't mean I didn't have fun. It was just a bit more of a laid back thing going on this vacation. Which I quite enjoyed. No crazy dangerous antics whatsoever. That meant no alcohol too.. I guess. LOL
So that brings me to my new year's resolution!
To value time more than ever and enjoy and live life on the moment. NO more worrying about the future too much!
It's just disappointing when things don't go my way. So why bother!
Anyhow, that's about it for today folks! You will hear from me soon! There's a lot of exciting things coming my way for the next few days and I hope I would be able to share it to you.
OH and BTW! Here's what I've been doing and working on recently! Enjoy wasting 5 minutes of your life watching me do a lame impression of Mika sans MUSIC! err It's more fun that way! Or maybe I'm just hiding the fact that we suck. You decide!
Till then. WATCH ME DO THE CHICKEN DANCE!
Is it really christmas that is coming our way soon? Because I'm feeling the L O V E.. And not the type you can get from your mum;)
I guess February came in a little late for me this year. Yep that is it.
You see, I lost out of touch with a thing called love way.. way back when I was 13. After an end was put to a blissful affair consisting of long cheesy sms trysts and akward face-to-face meetings, that at the moment, I thought was love..
I swore to myself that I will never be that foolish again and that I would be above all this petty rubbish. And so I did.
Only to be THWARTED now..
Scrambled Eggs!
OH how I am infatuated by it. Just pure admiration and lethal love-induced delusions.
I am just under it's control especially when it wears that scarlet thing called ketchup all over her beautiful face. It makes me want to eat her up literally!
....
Oh Scrambles! If you hear me!
I will cherish you till the day my stomach is given the chance to digest you completely. Regardless of the fact you are quite oily.
From now onwards, if you let me, I will love you with each morning that I'll be lucky to live through.
You have to trust me on this.
Forever and always,
I burn and that makes you happy of course
You're not the one that deteriorates to loss
So don't point fingers for the small things I do
Because your ecstasy, it makes me feel small
Lets make one thing a little less smoky
Before I get blown by the winter night's air
All the blame on me is a little undeserved
I'm not bad for you, you are death for me.
Weird, sad, unexpected, my fault, his, whatever the reason may be it all ended the same.. one less person to call friend.
let's start shall we.
I lost a friend because (of):
1) A Girl - Simple. We liked the same girl. She can only like one of us. In the end, the girl chose, one guy was the happiest boy in the world, one was cursing the other from the bottom of his bitter heart and a friendship had gone.
2) Body Weight - When you are hanging out with the fat kid at school, it just doesn't do wonders for your popularity. I didn't know what "quality over quantity" meant back then, so I chose to have more "friends".
3) Distance - I'm sure everyone can relate to this. Some friendships aren't just mile-proof. More so if you were 8 and mobiles and emails weren't at your disposal yet.
4) Nothing - People change? They get sick of you? Whatever it is, this is the most cumbersome so far that I have encountered. There's just too many questions. Especially, if he doesn't care to even explain anymore.
5) His Sister - I told him his sister was hot without any malice intended. I got a punch as a reply. Tragic. Well he is Arab. They marry their sexy cousins.
6) Wrong Impressions - You thought he was a "chill" guy, turns out he is a pathological liar. He said he has 5 girls dying over him and a dude, all at the same time. right.
7) I graduated (Primary, that is) - Or I switched schools. Similar to the distance issue, some friends are only friends in certain places. How many "School friends" do you have?
8) Lack of Money - I was on a budget. Wasn't able to keep up with the cost of going to his whereabouts and all his antics. So He looked for a richer guy to hang with.
9) A New Cooler Guy - He started hanging out with the new guy all the time. Everybody likes a shiny new toy right? After that you are just second priority.
10) Danger - I am not the most responsible friend that you will have, that I'll admit. But I thought good friends should stick with each other through highs and lows. This guy chose to take flight the very first sign of it. *puke* Courageous! ;)
Well.
It's true what they say. They come and they go. But some sticks around longer than you expect. Don't take them for granted.
So, here I am near my window, blogging. It is currently 8 20 and from what I remember my school starts at half past 8. I just figured out that I might have missed my bus to school today and I'm not even that smart to make it out sometimes.
But nevertheless, I still haven't gone back to sleep as I'm still hoping that, that Fat Canary of a vehicle would come back for me. Or I hope not, as it just hit me that I didn't do my revision homework for maths. I'm an all-play and no work guy if you haven't noticed yet.
Let's just think of this as God's will for us to catch up. :) (It would be fun if God would always be this generous and thoughtful. Ha!)
Okay, catch up it is. Here goes.
Since I started school this year, there is this restless feeling in me that I can't get rid of. That feeling becomes more intense as I see my teachers. My IQ doesn't pass 100 so I can't figure out the reason as to why as well. So that's that.
Second, My close circle of boys in school started to study now - "It's the last year *R@#n, It'll be shit if we fail... I want to go to Cambridge." and I will go "WTF?!" on their overachieving faces.
This strange occurrence that struck them forced me to study a bit now as there is no any other way to not feel left out.
Third, I am actually happier listening a bit more in class. The day goes by faster you see. I just imagine that, when my physics teacher rubs that polythene rod to demonstrate static electricity, it is something not plastic. Shortly after I LMFAO in my head.
And Lastly, my new math teacher is the combination of the looks of ET and the temper of Satan. (I presume as I haven't met him personally)
I have a hunch that soon enough I will go "delinquent hormonal teenager" on her and I apologize now.
So that's about it. School! Oh but lately, I have been hanging out with older people too.
It kind of boosts my morale as I thought my life was shit till I hear their medley of tragic and sorrow for life stories. God, was I funny to think I knew what messed up means.
One of them even said something that I say to myself a lot now when I call Ms. Life an unfair bitch.
"It's better than nothing."
I love old people.
Till then! Play Nintendo or go back to sleep? Ha! Cheers!
PS- I wish my bus was as cool as The MAGIC School Bus. Travelling down oesophagi is fly yo.
"Talk about a pretty view :)"
"Time Table of Hell : When Do Trannies Get Their Break?" (Look closely)
And lastly, this is how all the bus rides home look like. Annoying kids (left photo) and my friend and neighbour with the bat-shit crazy face (right).
Till then! It's effing harder than it looks to do photo posts! (Or is it just me?)
P.S. - Header shot is me looking "very sad" missing school today. With some facial mud mask on. LOL (So much for first impressions ei?) ;)
*yawn*
It's the day alright. The early day.
Once again, for such a long time, i am finally able to wake up before the sun does. Also here I am again looking like I am drowning in my school uniform.
I knew I should've bought a size smaller. Gah.
Eh, fuck it. I'll just be asleep half the day in there anyways.
Just wanted to write before I get all the will sucked out of me later. :)
see you later cool people of the internet. You guys have been a big part of my summer this year and I am very appreciative of that.
OMFG! I'm going to cut this short! I'm running late!
Till then! I'm off! School bus is here.
P.S. - Yeah, school bus. Retardation!
Yesterday was a pretty cool day. It went just little too fast for my liking actually.
Guess where we dined at. (We pretended to own the place for the night aswell)
Well it's no other place than *da da da da* TACO BELL! The fanciest chain in the whole latin world! Woooh!.
Er, Latin World?! Nevermind me.
So me and my good chums dove our faces on burritos and preteded we were going down on.... yeah. People were staring. We didn't mind as we were too busy sharing our grip techniques. *wink*
So all was well and good. But the show stealer of the night was a random dude.
I didnt know this guy but boy is he a saint in my book now. And to think he just passed by our table and did nothing else.
I'll explain.
As I think most of you now know, I live in Dubai, UAE which is in the lovely, middle east! Naturally, it is a muslim country.
That guy was wearing a shirt.
Sounds pretty innocent, ye? But what's ON his shirt would not gather smiles from A LOT of people here. I assure you.
It read -
"Gay Pride" in rainbow colors. Keyword, RAINBOW.
My mouth went slighlty ajar. No I'm lying! It was wide fucken open in astonishment and disbelief.
Boy was he asking for IT. Brave man! Brave man indeed!
He probably got sent to the slammers before the night ended though. Sad face.
(Consider this story if you think I'm exaggerating on getting jailed here for a shirt.)
Whatever. Salute to the random dude! Wherever he maybe now. Convicted or not convicted, it shall remain a mystery.
Unless he gets into the papers! Wooot! GLAM-O-ROUS!
So that's what little fun I had before I go back to the centre for the obnoxious and slighlty incapacitated in the head youths that is, my school. Let's say this together! YEY for Nahlej!
Till then! I'm ironing my white shirt for tomorrow! *school girl giggles*
Update - Proves I need to go back to school.. It was actually suppose to be spelt as knowledge, not nahlej. Sealy me! ha! I learn something new Evridei.
My room is clean again after almost 2 months of piggish hibernation. It's a major part of my "I feel good again" changes.
So now I have been sitting here for awhile. Alone in the dark, in these 4 walls. And still am all smirks. I have been thinking you see.
It feels good.
I realized something aswell.
I'm not going to say that this applies to everybody and everytime but I think it's pretty reasonable enough. That,
Life is only unfair, if you let it be unfair to you.
Sulking is your enemy and so is worrying.
Now I feel foolish because I'm talking all wisey longer than I should be! Ha!
So that's that! No more tirades of sob posts here! OH wait, fuck it!
I'm still going to do that planned weekly whine posts! Lol It's just not me without a bit of whining really! So Cheers!
Till then! WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOT!
